Each Day is a Gift

Thanks to everyone for your encouragement. I'm really ashamed that I let the stress get to me like this. Things don't look good at all. The future is very unclear, but we will continue to do all we can. I refuse to look back on this whole experience and wonder if I really did all I could. Its so upsetting that I can't even talk with some of Brody's regular nurses because they begin to cry about the situation, but I'm glad they care...
Through the night Brody's urine output decreased even more. There is one last medication they can try but its a long shot. At the rate his kidney function is declining, the question is whether we have the time to mess around with more medications or if we need to start hemo-dialysis right away to preserve what little bit of function he has. We have been keeping him full of sedatives and narcotics for comfort. I've only seen his eyes just once since surgery Monday. Its impossible to describe the pain I feel when I see him like this. I just need to remember that he has been with us 4 years longer than ever expected. Each day that we have him is just another gift. He is our saving grace and we will do everything in our power to fight for his life. If he's not giving up, neither are we.