Easter

Easter was pretty good this year. We made it a point not to overdo it with Kaybri's Easter basket. She has plenty of everything. I wasn't even sure what else she could possible need or want so she got a bunch of candy, a book, and a dress. Good enough!! She loved it. Easter Sunday I had to work but did get to spend the morning with Joss and Kaybri. Then they went to Joss' parents house for dinner.

That weekend I had the opportunity to go to Little Sahara Sand Dunes for work. Let me tell ya... it was crazy out there. 35,000 people stuffed into a campground for Spring Break. The work wasn't too chaotic, luckily. But I sure felt bad for the greatly outnumbered officers out there.

In other news, Brody's headstone was put in a couple weeks ago. It turned out really nice I think. (I have pics but I'll have to post them later.... Sorry)

For Joss, work has been hit and miss. Mostly hit, thank goodness! But everyday is a little stressful since they have been doing so many lay-offs. Nobody's job is safe at this point. We just hold our breath and hope for the best.

Kaybri has been especially well behaved lately. (Its been a little weird to be honest) She has been very polite and good to help out around the house. I hate to think that she is growing up. Also, she has found a new hobby--puzzles. She absolutely loves them. She has about 8 of them that consist of 24 pieces. She'll dump them all out in a pile together and sort through all the puzzles in about 30 minutes. Not too shabby.

Other than that, nothing new! Hope everyone had a good Easter and is enjoying the slightly warmer weather.

Looking Back...

Its been nearly one year since the most horrific day of my life. Not the day Brody passed away peacefully at home, but the day Joss and I performed CPR on Brody in full arrest some 100 miles from home. I couldn't help but pull up the post from that day....
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Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Horror
Yesterday was the most horrific and traumatic day of our lives. The events keep replaying in our minds. Haunting us. Tormenting us. We had been at Primary's for a regular check-up. On the way home, we stopped in Provo to get some food to go. I went into Cafe Rio and when I came out, I could hear Joss' piercing screams. I ran to his side to find that Brody had apparently began choking. He tried to suction and couldn't get into his trachea. He immediately pulled Brody from the car and layed him on the snowy asphalt to do an emergency trach change. The trach went in briefly and came back out. We called 911 and worked together to do CPR the best we could. He went into full arrest. We worked on his lifeless blue body desperately. No heart beat, no breaths for upwards of 7 minutes before he was finally revived by paramedics at Utah Valley Hospital. He was soon transported by air back to Primary's. We were sure he wouldn't survive the flight. We contacted our families to come say goodbye. But when we arrived in the PICU, he was semi-conscious and fighting for life. There is much trauma to his body and only time will tell what his neurological state is. All we can do is PRAY!
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.... The days that followed showed some short-lived improvement up until May 12 when we confronted the medical staff as to why they were dodging our questions of dialysis. It was then that they told us he just wasn't a good candidate because his future was so uncertain anyway. And, well, you all know how the story ends.

The next few weeks might be rough for us. A time of painful memories and "what-if"s. But if given the opportunity to raise Brody all over again, I wouldn't hesitate. He made us who we are today and for that we are forever indebted to our little Brody Kazody ... our Angel Boy.

Photo Recovery

I've been trying to retrieve my photos from my memory card that was erased. I don't want to praise this program too highly as I have not finished the whole process but tonight I was able to preview the photos that the program was able to retrieve. Nearly 500 things between pix and flix! I am so happy! I never thought I'd see them again. I'm not sure how much this is going to end up costing me as I did not complete the purchase of the license agreement yet. But when I do, I will be sure to let everyone know. Whatever the cost, it will be worth it!! ....

http://www.cardrecovery.com

DONATIONS!

What do you get when you combine 200 blankets with 400 books, 125 hand-crafted journals, 150 hygiene kits, 50,000 pop tabs and a large assortment of toys, games and craft supplies? ......


ONE AWESOME DONATION!! (And Kaybri was such a big helper getting it all organized!)

Over 150 Hygiene kits for parents staying at Ronald McDonald House while their children are in-patient at Primary's

Don't be fooled! Looks are deceiving--There are approximately 50,000 pop tabs here for Ronald McDonald House Charities!

A look inside one of the 40 bags stuffed for Gunnison Valley Hospital. Each one has a blanket, book and small toy for the sick kids staying there.

Just a few of the adorable hand-crafted journals that will go to the parents at Primary's to record there thoughts and keep track of doctors instructions. (These were SO fun and even with 125+, there are no two alike!)

The biggest question now is how in the world are we going to manage to get all of this delivered in one trip? We'll have to manage. Tomorrow is the big day! (And just a hair under 2 months later than originally planned--Alright! Go me! Nothing like procrastination!)

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*SPECIAL THANKS TO JOSS' FAMILY FOR ALL THEIR HARD WORK IN ORGANIZATION AND DELIVERY. THANKS TO BOTH MINE AND JOSS' FAMILY AND ALL OUR WONDERFUL FRIENDS AND NEIGHBORS FOR THEIR SELFLESS CONTRIBUTIONS! THANK YOU!!

Fingers Crossed

Last night we went shopping in Ephraim (Its further to drive but sometimes its nice not to have to stop and visit with ten different people you know while you are just trying to get your dang groceries and get out alive!!). As we passed the Manti temple, Kaybri started telling us that Brody and Jesus live there and that they want her to visit them in her white dress. It was so sweet. When we got home she asked if we could go to the temple tomorrow. I told her that we couldn't go tomorrow and she started crying. "I just want to go see Brody. He feels all better now and I want him to come home with me. I miss him so much and I want to give him loves!" I felt so sad watching her cry for him. It has become apparent that his death has affected her greatly. I often wonder if she suffers from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I've read into it and I really think she might have it. However, what do you do? Its kind of difficult to seek out emotional therapy for a three year old. They don't really know how to talk about their feelings. So, we'll just work with her and hopefully help her to overcome these afflictions.

On a positive note, we have some of the best friends in the world! A huge thank you to the Hallidays for working so hard to help us retrieve our pictures from my memory card. They have found a computer program that claims to be able to retrieve anything that has ever been on your memory card. They tested it out on theirs and it worked. So I have ordered a USB adapter for my card to connect to the computer. As soon as it gets here, we will put the program to the ultimate test. If it works, I will owe Tanya and Trent SO BIG!!! So keep your fingers crossed and wish us luck!!